I know I should have survived & I didn't even enjoy it, but I will quit & I'm sure after reading the book again I will quit for good.
My appologies to Tom, who I told I'd quit & my parents, who I hadn't told but probably realised after I didn't have a fag the whole time I was with them yesterday.
What I need to do now is figure out why I quit, then re-read that chapter.... I AM going to get there & I WILL SUCCEED. For me & not for anyone else.
It isn't an excuse, this is me trying to understand why I didn't manage to achieve my goal.
Next time I will manage, I won't go to a pub I know vertually no-one on my own & I will manage